Peace.

Today was the second day of the new year, and it was amazing. I feel blessed. For so many reasons, in so many ways, and by so many people. This multi-faceted feeling parallels the title of today's blog in the sense that  not only is it referring to a special young girl in my life, but it also reflects my current state of emotions. I am grateful to finally be at peace, after what seemed to be one of the most turbulent periods of my life in so many different ways. But hey, gold has to be put through fire to become what it is, right?


It started off beautiful...by the way- today's blog is literally another one of those recaps of my day posts, with no specific topic of discussion, but I will incorporate some though provokers as the post goes on, so be on the look out.


So it started off with doing 150 squats with ease ( Grace only did 50) while listening to 'Bed Peace'. How did I end up doing a workout routine to such an "emotional" song, as it were? Well,  Peace, my young darling cousin, before I was about to commence workouts, said "I'm staying in bed all day". Then I said "Oh, you're at bed peace (pun intended), like the song....have you heard the song before?" & the rest was Jhene Aiko downhill.....literally, because even after I finished the squats, we had a mini - jam session to Jhene Aiko's other songs (Spotless Mind, was a particular favourite). So it seemed as if the day would continue on this "peace-y, Soulful" high, and so it did.......



....as watching Pocahontas later in the evening reinforced the mindset that I have had all my life, which I actually thought I recently adopted. Just like Pocahontas, I too have aspirations, a mindset, a  lifestyle that goes further and deeper than the traditional or the common. The easy is not our forte. Her easy was to get married to the guy she was betrothed to. Yet, she was more at peace, was herself when she explored. When she found new worlds, expanded her territories, fed her mind, exercised her god-given femininity and just all-around person. It may just so be the case, that Pocahontas character has subliminally underpinned my mindset, outlook on life, because literally everything about her actions in the film reflects my own personal life outlook. I actually even forgot how much of a big part of my childhood the film  was, and also how much value I placed on the female character herself. She has been my role model, all this time & I did not even realise it.

In sum,  I am blessed to have peace & pocahontas. 

Happy 2nd of January. 

Spotless Mind x Jhene Aiko 

The year of the Baby Girl.

Happy New Year! | 2016.

Thank you Lord, for the fact that I am able to be counted among the living. As I always say, I love the new year, as it gives me an excuse to make changes. Yet, something that was profoundly and distinctively different about this crossover experience, was that there was literally nothing that I felt I needed to dramatically change about myself. Usually, I approach/enter into every crossover with the mindset of "new year, new me", but this year, I can finally say that one of the most important things that I normally pray and hope to improve in every single start of the year ( confidence) - I have a fairly good grasp of it... good enough to the point of not obsessing over it at the point of this crossover. In fact, I vividly remember that around 7:30 pm GMT, as my uncle was driving me over to London, I was so excited to crossover into the new year. These are all feelings that I normally do not have, but I am grateful to Him for having felt the way I felt. God is good - & I cannot help but attribute my feelings to the  all too important year out that I took. I thank God for discipline, for his mercy, and for his direction.


I look forward to the developments of this year, and as the first day of this year ends, I will allow you all, readers, a sneak peek into my thoughts concerning this year. Here's my approach, as it aligns with God's execution:


If you are familiar with the all too common quote - "Work Hard, Play Hard", then you understand what it means as well. I spent the past year working hard. Working hard to counter all of the negative things that had been a part of my life for so long - unnecessary and disgusting low self-esteem, low self-worth - all that which affected my academics, relationships, and so much more. All glory be to God, that mountain in my life has been demolished, destroyed, overcome, defeated, subdued. So now it is time to "play". This is where my "the year of the baby girl" mindset comes from. I deserve to "baby girl" it to the fullest this year. Wear makeup a little more. Doll up a bit more. Flirt a bit more. Smile and charm it up a bit more. Dance a bit more. Relax a lot more - not in every aspect of my life of course, but rather where it matters most.


2016.
Prioritize.
Pray.
Peace.
Positivity.
Happiness.
Appreciation.
Praise.
Plan.
Pray.
Play.

...Everything that I (mistakenly) told myself that I couldn't have.

Be kind to yourself.


Psalm 119:57-64




BolaxOke.